It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new year…….and I’m feelin’…….reflective. I was going to write a post called My kNIGHT In Shining Armor which would have related first to New Year’s Eve and getting dressed up into something sparkly/shiny to party the night away. Which is what I usually do on NYE (party the night away). Explaining how this glittery ensemble that I speak of is like my coat of armor to wear as I say goodbye to the past year and head into the new with an energy similar to that of a kid on the first day of school, or better yet feeling alive and excited like an adult heading out on his/her summer vacation. However, that is not quite how this NYE went. It was very low key, low energy and I was a bit under the weather. Heading into the new year without a big bang left me feeling a bit underwhelmed about 2017 and unfocused on new goals and ventures. So on this last day of the first month of the new year I’m still feeling rather pensive.
With a number of changes in the air and in my life, I feel a bit uneasy and off-kilter. As I sit down and really think about this transitional time I realize that all of these big events and shifts are good things. Milestones that will project me into the next phase of my life. The real adult phase, if you will. Wink. The phase where decisions are bigger and have more meaning to me and the people around me. It’s a pivotal time where I feel I’m molding myself and creating the life I want to live now and in the future. Which brings me to the second comparison of my previously imagined post, My Knight.
People come in and out of your life for many different reasons; to encourage, to teach life lessons, to push you outside of your comfort zone, to love you, etc. My beau currently does all of these and then some. He is my “knight in shining armor,” my protector. It’s funny that when I first met him I didn’t think he’d have such a huge impact on my life. But, because he and I are polar opposites I am learning a ton. Not just about him and relationships, but also about myself. Mostly about myself. There are some hurdles and growing pains and I’ve definitely danced outside of my comfort zone, but I’ve also come to appreciate things and people that I probably would have never crossed paths with. Opening yourself to new ideas, people and places can be scary. Feeling the changes and growth within yourself and then looking back at who you were can be eye opening. Dueling not only with yourself, but with the idea of where you thought your life would be compared to the reality of it all can sometimes be an uphill struggle. But if you throw on your suit of armor, whatever that may be, take a deep breath and soldier on past the little battles that pop up within, you’ll find a whole new beautiful world waiting on the other side.
Inspired by and dedicated to the beautiful and talented Debbie Reynolds.
Boots: Forever 21
Bag: BAM FOREVER
Lips: MAC Ruby Woo
Photography by Kirsten Waguespack of Aperture Photos